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Going into this I know it isn’t going to be easy, but I’m excited about starting the challenge and hoping when I am done I will have made some positive changes.
At work in the afternoon I am jonesing for some chocolate. It becomes all I can think about. I eat a banana and peanut butter as a snack and feel satisfied.
Later I am reading e-mails and answering phone calls and start feeling very stressed out. The urge for chocolate returns tenfold. I go for another hour before I give in and buy some chocolate and eat way too much. I eat it when I am pumping so my coworkers don’t see me and know I already blew the challenge, and my calorie goal for the day.
I feel terrible that I gave in already and realize that I do have a sugar addiction, particularly chocolate. I know I use chocolate as a crutch and a stress reliever.
Knowing that I failed yesterday makes me try harder and stay strong today.
I do well all morning, workout during my lunch break, and have a great salad for lunch. Late afternoon I get stressed out and reach for chocolate. I manage to eat just a piece instead of a whole bag.
Right away it starts out as a tough day. I have oatmeal and coffee for breakfast and then fruit and yogurt once I get to work. An important project keeps me at my desk most of the day and my thoughts keep going back to finding something to munch on. By lunch I give in and have a cookie… or three.
Saturday at home helps me stay on track. I can’t go to the cafeteria or a vending machine to cheat on the challenge.
I have a little bit of chocolate ice cream in the evening but otherwise well all day.
So I pretty much sucked at the first week (or two) of the challenge. I already knew that I use food as a crutch, a drug, but I didn’t really realize just how much, particularly chocolate. I found that I was thinking (obsessing) over chocolate a lot.
I started to change the way I thought about the challenge. Instead of finishing the challenge as my goal, I decided to use my desire for losing 20 pounds as my end goal and the challenge as a tool to accomplish that. During the next week I do better and only give in to chocolate once. I did try to workout more consistently and feel like that has helped. In this last week I have been focusing on getting in all my recommended servings of vegetables and fruits and have felt so full that I haven’t wanted to give in to cravings.
I have lost 5 pounds and feel better. I think I would be open to doing another 30 day challenge, but probably one that is not as strict.
Have you ever tried a challenge like this? How did it turn out for you?